ENTERING THE CIRCLE

I want this to be a place of support and healing. A place where you know you are not alone. If you are comfortable enough to share your story, the comment section is open. If you aren’t ready, that’s ok. Even if you never want to share, that is ok too. Whatever healing looks like for you, I hope you feel supported. For now, here is my story…

In December of 2020 I started my journey as a Mother 4 months too soon. I gave birth to my earthside daughter at 24 weeks weighing 0lbs 14 oz via classical c-section due to severe preeclampsia. If you don't know what a classical c-section is, as I didn’t until hours after it happened to me, I can help. In a typical c-section the uterus is cut low and horizontal. In a classical c-section the uterus is cut vertical and higher up. This type of delivery is experienced by less than 1% of birthing mothers. Lucky me.

The complication caused by the surgery I had is a much larger uterine scar. This causes a risk of uterine rupture for future pregnancies. Less than 1% of women who have classical c-sections end up with a uterine rupture in subsequent pregnancies. Once again, lucky me.

In july of 2023 I was thrilled to hit my third trimester of pregnancy. I never had one the first time. Little did I know it would only last a week. At 28 weeks pregnant I became that less than 1% statistic again when I suffered a uterine rupture. After being rushed to Albany Medical center by ambulance I got to the ER to find out I was about to enter the darkest chapter of my life. I had no idea how badly I would need to be encircled by compassion, validation and support. I needed my herd more than ever before.