The Grief Circle

I have been thinking about starting this blog for months now. Every time I sit down to write, I think “I should wait”. I thought I should wait for the grief to subside. I woke up today and finally realized- that will not happen. Grief doesn't subside. No matter how much time passes, I will be grieving the loss of my daughter forever. Time will help me handle the grief better, but it won’t go away.

For a long time after the birth I thought “what if I am never myself again after this”. The truth is, I’m not and I won’t be again. I am forever changed by what happened to me, to our family. So no more waiting. I am ready to share my story. If this blog reaches even one family experiencing pregnancy or infant loss, it will be worth every word written and every tear that falls on my keyboard.

Not much could comfort me while I was in the thick of grief. Something that did help, was to know I am not alone. After an elephant gives birth, the herd band together and form a circle around the calf to protect it from predators. Since your baby is not earth side, I am here to create that space for you. I hope this blog will do just that. I want to encircle families who experience loss.

In this circle you will experience compassion, validation and support. My hope for you is you feel protected here. This circle is your safe space. Here you can experience grief at any stage in any way. In this circle, you are not alone.